It’s not that big like a wedding…but for him it was something.
But upon happening of that event, it was surreal for him, in a not so good way. He loved some part, hate others..err hate most of it. The only consolation for him is the joy that the others are feeling or he thought that was bliss for them not for him.
He gather himself up and continue and felt something. He was sad and could not understand. After the deed, he felt a little relief. Or he thought he was relieved for after that - he was more sad and this time hurt and after - in pain.
After the deed - the other guy searched for his hand and found it and squeezed it. He squeezed back but after a while, he let go. He has to let go…..
Upon hearing your story last night, I found myself contemplating on my own issues. Compared to yours, mine will be too simple, too trivial. Most of the time, I find myself blowing it all out, making it worse and damaging myself more on the process.
Your response - I have to be ok, although simple yet straightforward. I am sensing a strong girl, a struggling girl, an able girl. and I salute you for that. I have few encounters of those kinds, who will still be able to get back up, to still continue, to still pursue. I can’t imagine myself on that situation, probably I will be losing my mind or else I may have taken my life. These so called problems of mine will be a speck in a pile.
I just want say that I support you for staying still and marching on your battle. I might not be present on the grounds for I know you got it all covered and you can win that. I hope you find everlasting happiness and bliss. I miss you a lot. we have to catch up soon.
I missed some calls last Friday - it was done around 2-3 in the morning and I was like so passed out already plus my phones on silent mode. Dunno, why it’s on silent mode because the reason I do that, ok make that reasons:
1. to save up on battery - crapberry’s battery life is low as in do not expect to last in a day most especially if you are have lots of activities
2. i don’t want to be disturbed when I sleep because, it just a week ago that I happen to have my sleeping skills back - I call that a skill because I’ve struggled for months to have a continuous sleep and now although I might sleep in the morning..it’s continuous
Ok, but that’s not the reason I need good vibes.
i’m so bored - you can read my thoughts on it from my previous post :P
I will have an interview tomorrow, and I want to have a job soon because I am soo bored with my life and that I found some good merchandise online and I want to buy them.
If that made me a shallow person, so be it but that’s me.
Plus - I will ask my mom to come back home because she’s away for like 11 years now or 12, I lost count and I want to her to rest.
So anyone with good vibes - I need all that tomorrow because I will pour my heart out and
amaze them to close it and eventually hire me.
and we will all be happy and world peace will prevail.
way back, around 12 or more years ago, I chance upon a segment of my favorite DJ on their morning show. I don’t exactly remember the title, but they play versions of a song from different artist. and now, while waiting for that call (interview) I will post 2 songs, my first VERSION song - Happily Never After by Nicole S and the Backstreetboys. I like he BSB’s version better.
I so dreaded this day and I did not expect me saying this that I am sooo bored being unemployed for 3 months already. My friend warned me before to really enjoy this time off - which I did, really but come the 3rd month and more - you will miss that you are doing something. Eto na yun, i find myself wondering what ifs and I think I overturned all my resources and activities on how to not be bored. LOL. My bb is overworked on checking BB messages, my iphone is tired of me flipping thru different apps and then closing it. I’ve added some few apps then deleted it if I get bored and does not serve any purpose to me toinks!
Aargh - Then the thought that I missed that call last Friday night or Saturday morning, hope they’ll call again on Monday because I will make it a point to impress them ng bongga lahat na lang siguro ng power speech ko reserved for situations like that ilalabas ko na, mga pangcrucial for them to looooove me and then eventually hire me. haaay, I have laid out plans kung anu gagawin ko sa Manila or Makati or wherever I may be assigned and kung san makakahanap ng house. I’ve captured some screenshots from the net ng mga clothes, bags and shoes na bibilhin ko hahaha! (ganun tlga) Pero promise, I think these are all my prime movers if not ung future ko, which I think I’ve made the right decision on placing it on time deposit para, walang daya at di ko mawiwidraw haha! One might say I’m that shallow but, well it’s just me. Ung serious, serious but ayun ako, gets? gi ko din gets eh hahaha! siguro that’s how bored I am talaga!
I made a new friend na nakakasupport ng kaweirduhan ko, kase sya mismo mas weird saken. It’s always a great conversation (and more, wink) but more on stories and gods and supernaturals. Kc, like few months back, I’ve thought of mixing the Philippine myths with some bayani, pero fiction lang to. Di ako nanalo, pero I think one of the smartest thought na napour sa papel. Di pa nga lang nassundo, but I am planning to at least kahet konti, continue that.
I’ve never really applied na really company to company, like super serious bevause wala pa akong target pero dapat nman before the end of June, settled na ako somewhere. Aargh, this boredom is killing me talaga!
this is crazeeee but I’ve been involved in something that is not that right..I can’t really expound much about it - it’s just that I think it’s not that bad kind of thing LOL. Guilty - am not really but more of excited/scared/bahala na si batman kind of thing. Aargh I dunno what to think, I dnt want to ponder on that anymore as it will ruin my not but maybe I’m just bored…or Im just kileeeg or maybe both. kakadiri na ko, pbb teens ang peg pero aaargh, ok nman siguro. Ang gulo ko noh LOL!
Right now - I am browsing an online shopping website and I am soooo tempted to make a purchase because I’ve spotted a couple (or moooore) of nice shoes - and they are my waterloo. by Just looking at them, waaaaah I am restraining myself. Wala akong trabaho, and could not support those. Sana magkaroon na, promise I’ll raid this website, joke!
I am on ASOS which I learned by accident as I’m looking for a local distributor of CRAP eyeglass/sunglass that I (or me and my friend Rey) can’t find. And incidentally, this site offers all from shoes, to bags and accessories and they are pretty affordable. Grabe talaga, I am so excited - I took some screenshots of the shoe and the bag that I liked. Please see the pic above for my shoe and for the bag below.